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Do I still have a chance to get her back? Please read my story?

We had been together 2 years and 11 months exactly, counting down the days to celebrate our anniversary, as we we're both looking forward to it so much. We were planning on going to London for the evening, nice restaurant or a bar, evening to ourselves, hotel. We were happy, and love (loved) each other so much. We had a few arguments lately, because I was scared of my new work, worried I would never see her, and because I was having trouble at home. I had a lot of issues, and she was always there through the good and the bad to help me. We might be 19, but you have no idea how mature she is. You'd think she was 25 the way she acted, even older even, that's why I always called her an "old girl" despite being a month younger :) She knew how to deal with things, like the house, financial issues, work, anything, she can do it. She has Juvenile Idiopathic Arthritis, has had it ever since she was a year old. She has had it hard, lived life for a long time in a wheel chair, can barely move on some days which made school hard, yet she came out of school with A's. She always worked so hard :) She was old headed, but still so fun, and kinda crazy, her family always said she was the crazy one. It's true, she loves random things, and doesn't care what other people think, you wouldn't expect it from her, but after talking to her for a year it wasn't crazy, it was her. The her I loved and know so well. Quick backstory, we met at a friends party and I was struck, she was so beautiful. We spoke for a long while that night, and when she left I ran out into the road as she pulled away, waving her off. I didn't know if it was love then but it was something. She found my msn shortly after. She raced home everyday for a year to come talk to me, all we did was talk. Saw each other a couple of times with friends. We were there for each other. She fell for me at this time, she told me a while ago, that she had fallen for me, but was heartbroken when she didn't think I felt for her. Oh how I felt for her. I spent a year, getting to know her, finally plucking up the courage to ask her to be with me. We weren't stupid kinds. I'm incredibly old fashioned, I believe in the one and only, to wait for the one, which is why I was so scared to ask her to be with me, I was young, but I guess you could call me lucky. Anyway. We we're happy in love, everybody knew it, even her family loved me, and they thought we would go the distance, everybody did. It came up in conversation, between me and her as we sat at her sisters wedding. She said she could see herself with me, married, and I did with her. We were amazing together, and she is the perfect person for me. So why not think of her in the future? We weren't going to act on it, not for a LONG time, but it was always a possibility. She helped me find work, we planned a holiday away, but discarded it to save up to rent a place together, near work, start our lives. (She always said, when we would spend the night together, or a weekend together, that she always wants to wake up with me at her side, and that its always weird and upsetting for her when she does wake up alone). So yes, we had lots of ideas, we were starting our own lives now, want to take things into our own hands. In the last month, before she called it off, we were happy, she told me she couldn't think of life without me, and didn't want to. I believed her. I was finally getting over my issues of drinking (I hated it) and tattoos and being scared of work, it was all working out. She then said she wanted a tattoo, and I didn't like them, but she asked me to help put her design on paper for her, I did, drew it on her, and felt okay with it. Not that I had a choice, but she wanted my opinion, and I was finally over my fear of her changing if she changes something about her image. I had huge issues with that. She wanted to dye her hair, but I always freaked out, so she didn't. I didn't drink so she didn't. I could see her tearing up inside, and always said to do things regardless of what I think, because deep down it's still her, the her I know. In the last week, she went out with friends from work. I was upset, because I wanted to see her, but I said that she can just say when she wants to go out and I will understand if she doesn't want to see me. We we're happy and settled it properly. The last night I saw her, she kissed me, said she can't wait for our anniversary in exactly 1 month, and left to go out. The next day she sent a text to me at work saying she can't lie and pretend any more. We met up in the evening after I had broken down at work, but I was calm when I saw her, asked her why. She said she never wanted it to get to this point, and that she needs to find our who she is. She wants to go out and have fun and not "babysit me" all the time.I had told her I had gotten I had told her I had gotten over my issues but she wouldn't hear it. She said sorry, hugged me, cried, and left, but not before her Mum (collecting her) cried and gave me a hug, she didn't want it to end either. I stood firm and "okay" as they left. I cried when they were out of sight, all the way on my 45 minute walk home. I was depressed, yes obviously, but I kept on going. I had to, I have a baby sister to look after (who to this day whenever she sees me keeps saying "you miss her don't you?". She's 6.) and work to do aswell. I went out with a few friends, and they invited her as it was a mates last day in town. We said about two words to each other, she never looked at me... and I got drunk... I had a few shots which I don't normally approve of, but did because I'd never tried it before. She didn't like that because she knew I didn't believe in it. I joked about smoking, saying I had a fag before I stopped over, and she didn't like that either, because we both hate it, absolutel P.S. I'm not a drinker, I have a couple of drinks sometimes, but last not even once a week. So, I'm not a drinker.

Public Comments

1. Let her go. If you are a drinker you might want to think about getting into counseling for that. You can't be co-dependent. You need to be secure with yourself....Trying to keep someone that isn't in the same place you are is like caging a wild animal that wants to go back to the forest. It might be beautiful, but it would be selfish for you to cage it just so you can enjoy yourself. Work on yourself and you will find someone. There are 6 billion people in the world, after all.
2. move on
3. Sorry, she is done with you. No chance she is coming back. Do yourself a favor and get rid of everything about her in your life and start new. It's gonna hurt for a while but each day a little less. Get out there where you can meet new girls. Nothing fixes the pain of lost love like new love~
4. I understand what you feel, but man, you have to let her go and move on (I tell you this, but I don't know how to let my ex go) we're on the same boat Alexander