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Relationship confusion please help?

Okay so heres the story. I met this girl about a year ago and we got along pretty well, and we gradually became closer friends. In August we went to PrideFest together and my freshman health teacher asked us if we were dating. we said no and laughed it off, but a bit later she said "that was kinda weird, but i mean, i would totally date you" and i said so too and we went back to my house, ate dinner and went to the glee movie. that evening i thought a lot about things and realized i had a bit of a crush on her, and it had been building for a while, but i suppressed it because i didnt think she'd ever like me back. a couple weeks later i got on facebook late at night and she chatted me and said she wanted to ask me something and it was okay if i said no, and she asked me out. i thought about it and realized the feelings i had been suppressing were still there, so i said yes. theres been a lot of drama at my school with lesbians who are way too open about their problems and excessive pda, so we decided it was best to just not act very different at school. that was fine, but we were both so busy that we rarely had time to spend together. we both have free periods at the same time and we have open campus so we would plan to go out during those times, and i would make sure to get everything done that i needed to so i was free. but she would always cancel because she had homework, or she was tired. i understand that we go to a school where the work is challenging, and she has add so her meds sometimes make her tired but it happens every single time and i just dont think she's giving nearly as much as i am. when we are together, usually its around friends and she just sits on her laptop on tumblr and reading glee fanfiction. i read fanfics too, but not to the point where im pretty much antisocial. she came over to my house once as well, but she just sat reading fanfics and hanging out with my mom and my dog, while i made her dinner. and saturday at our homecoming dance, during the last song she didnt even glance at me and asked her freaking ex to dance, and when he rejected her she just left. we danced together a couple times that night, but she wasnt even paying attention to me, and she kept turning us so she could make hearts at other people. since then she has barely spoken a word to me, and she wont answer my chats. i dont know what i could possibly have done wrong, and it doesnt help when she wont even talk to me. im the first girl she's ever dated, so it could be just a little weird for her, but we've been together for about a month and a half and that awkward stage shouldnt still be there. we haven't even kissed for fuck's sake. sometimes i think she might just want to break up but she isn't saying anything and im just confused, and on top of that i think im falling in love with her despite all the shit she's putting me through and i just don't know what to do! sorry for this being so long, i wanted to make sure i said everything necessary. please help!

Public Comments

1. Oh, for pity's sake, put in some PARAGRAPHS. I wouldnl't say you have been 'together' for a month and a half. You can't "break up" if you don't have some kind of commitment. You've danced around the idea of being a couple -- literally! -- but it doesn't sound like she's serious. Fictional relationships are always a lot easier than real ones. I suggest you let her stick with slashfic until she's ready for a real relationship. There are other girls out there, and they're probably a little more ready to interact with a live human being. I'm not dissing fanfic -- I used to write it and still read some now and then -- but at some point you have to leave the fantasy world and deal with reality IF you want a real relationship. Not everyone does, and she doesn't sound ready to take that leap.
2. You need to move on with your life, so the next time you get some time with her, you need to ask her straight up what's going on?, why are you treating me this way? If she gives a shitty excuse let her go. If some one likes you and cares for you, they wouldn't be treating you as if you were a burden to them. She may be scared, but that's no excuse to reject you in private. She could be using you to see if she likes girls or not, but you really need to know what's going on in her head.